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'Me' time. Ever since primary school and throughout secondary school, I'm known as an upright extrovert. Definition of being an extrovert: Extroverts may be more outgoing in that they gain energy from the other people and the external environment, and usually prefer to be with others.My 13 year old self would pretty much agree to this statement. I am pretty much very very extroverted, but then again that could be just a phase through secondary school, where you prefer to be with your friends. It is also the stage in life where your friends are really more important than anything else in the world. The reason why so many secondary school youths are always very emotional about friendship problems and relationship issues. For the record, I did't say that my friends are not important to me now, it is just that their importance in my life isn't as much as they used to be in the past.
Ever since I've started work (or maybe since diploma days), I don't know if it was the environment, or just a change in personality, I've grown to now being really and introvert. I would think that I'm actually an outgoing introvert (i don't even know if this makes sense). The first time someone meets me, I'm quite bubbly or outgoing, which makes people always think that I'm an extrovert, which in fact I'm the opposite of that.
Right now, I love being alone. Like ALL THE TIME. I don't understand when people give me the super shocked face when they know that I'm have meals alone, or when I'm going out alone.. Is it such shocking news?
Here, let me give you the 3 reasons why I love to be alone:
#1 Nobody is going to judge you on your decisions.
So there was this day after work (I end at 7pm), ther wasn't any food prepared at home and my mom is working and hence I have to eat alone. I went to have dinner, I stepped into a cafe and I have no idea what to eat. With a super empty stomach, I drank coffee and ate nutella pie. I'm pretty sure if I am with anyone else they would comment something about me drinking coffe at like 730pm, or even eating dessert for dinner. But this is why I love being on my own, I can order something fattening or super sinful without anybody commenting. Or I can decide to cut my hair, or go for massage and nobody would care, nobody would tell me it is too expensive.
#2 There's no other people opinion to consider.
Basically when I'm alone, I don't have to consider other people's budget, or location, or curfew or preference of food. Basically, I know what I want (or maybe not), and I just go straight for it. I know how much I can afford. I can decide to eat potato chips for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I won't have to care that someone else won't like this kind of environment and whatsoever. What matters is I like what I'm doing and where I'm going, what I choose.
#3 It gives me time to think.
All these blogpost you see on my blog are typed when I'm alone. When I'm given the space to have my own thoughts and not let other people speak. It's just me constantly speaking to myself. In this, I draw strength, and energy. And especially in quiet cafes with good music, I can just sit down and think about life, what I want to achieve, what I have done. And probably write a song or a book about it, HAHA JK!
While being alone seems to be a torture to most people, I would love love love being alone more than anything else. I love to do things alone, which is why I'm super excited about flying alone to Korea this coming December. And right now I don't see anyone would be able to come into my life with me for a long time when I'm like this, and that's okay to me. As long as I have someone I can rant to, I can share my problem with, that understands that I love being by myself.
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