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You know... how parents (especially mothers) always be saying like "you don't know how it feel like to be a mother (or father) until you really become one". I think.. I finally know how it feels like. To really want to give your children the best that you can possibly give. Even if you are tired and you're left with like that 20% of energy, you would still give that 20% away. Simply because you love them. I'm not saying that I am a mother, but working in the childcare field for 4 months, I think this is what I really come to understand: the love of a parent. I'm not a parent myself, so I am not able to personally dictate how it is like to have a child beside me for 24/7, but working with SO MANY children for like 9 hours a day, I think it is a good start. Every single day I wake up, tired, definitely, but I force myself out of bed because I know the children will be there waiting for me. They will be excited to see me. Sometimes I will really drag my feet till the gates of the school, and until I see the smile on the children's face, suddenly everything feels like it was worth it. These children, no matter how 'naughty' they are, they still somehow pump me up for the day. And for the first time in my life I actually felt bad when I take MC. To my children, I will give everything. And that feeling when the child comes to you when he or she is injured? That is probably the best feeling ever. Even though I am not the child's parent, I know exactly how that feels. Because the fact is that for that 9 hours that the child is in school, we, as teachers, we ARE their parents. The children look up to us for their refuge, for love, for permission, opinions, acceptance.. and many more. Being a teacher really is a job to inspire, influence and encourage. I'm far from being the 'best teacher' around, but I will keep learning. But for now, being an assistant teacher, I am closer to the children than their form teacher because I'm the one that is always on the ground taking care of them and assisting them. Even scolding them, it wasn't the best thing to do, but sometimes, they really do need it. 4 months.. it was enough. I watched them grow and learn. It wasn't a simple journey, but it was worth it. Looking at them picking up new words, phrases, and understand more about this world that they live in. It's actually a very beautiful thing. And every milestone that they reach, it is worth celebrating. Little steps that the children take, and the next moment you know, you can watch them fly. And I know how now matter how old you are, be it 19, 25 or even 30, you will forever remain as that little girl or that little boy in your parent's eyes. Your parents still wants you to go back to them just like how you did before, crying, or laughing, telling them about your life. There's so much more to being a parent. Someday, when I become a mother myself, I will definitely treasure every moment with my child, because before I know it, my child will be all grown up. I'm stating generally parents as a whole, there are exceptional cases of broken families and what I've written might not be applied to the lives of these. But no matter what, if you have children in the future, remember to love and treasure every single moment you have with them before it is all gone. To all the parents out there, thank you. |