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Field Practicum 3 On tuesday it was my field practicum. To my surprise I wasn't panicking or what. I don't know if that i a good hting or bad thing, but anyway, i wasn't THAT prepared. my learning corner were done just on that day itself and thank God that the children LOVED the play dough! So because of the play dough, they didn't play with anything else! Heheh. Saved me from the trouble of the other activities. Anyway the lesson was.. MEH. not exactly the best lesson, but yeah. I had SERIOUS SHIT classroom management issues. In N2 there are like 11 children. Including 1 special needs girl and 5 girls, 5 boys. But on tuesday only 8 children were present. 3 absent. But when i did the lesson, only 6 students because the teachers helped me to take away 1 DUPER TROUBLESOME boy and the special needs girl. Thank God they took these two children away. I mean the boy is like.. always not responding to what the teacher say! He know what he is suppose to do but he choose to do the opposite all the time. So the teacher took him out :P For the lesson, I took them out for a nature walk and observe the transportation and draw what they have observed. It started out well... and as usual the twin brothers were like hyper and jumping up and down when replying to my discussion questions. To me, that wasn't a problem but to my field supervision teacher? WELL THAT WAS A HECK OF A BIG PROBLEM. seriously? after that i took them out... they were suppose to draw what they saw, but instead they draw what they liked. "I want to draw my firetruck!" "teacher, I draw army tank!!!" like GOSH... I tell them to draw what they saw. Well, that was the boys though, the girls were okay. But being girls, you tend to get really specific in what they draw and all.. the said "teacher, i don't know how to draw that car!" then after they finish drawing i continued to walk with them to near the main entrance. then they started running. SHIT JUST GOT SERIOUS. i know i will be marked for this so i was feeling quite defeated already. i told them to stand behind the gat and observe and guess what? They started climbing the gate. Well, like 2 or 3 of them, not everyone. I told them to get down but they don't listen. When they finally got down, the twins started to say "LOOK PAPAYA TREE!!" so the rest of the class ran there too. So I had no choice but to bring them back.. Then the worst thing (for the whole lesson) happened. While walking back, the boys got cheeky and RAN. the freaking RAN ahead of me, all the way back to their class. In my mind I was like SHIT SHIT YOU LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT. so they ran all the way back to class and was literally out of my sight... I followed them and run (of course.) when we got back to class, the boys were all still excited and went to my learning corner and like "TEACHER CAN I PLAY THE PLAY DOUGH?" yes i want to let you to play, but we have things to do first. I got them together and then i said something i never though i'll ever need to say during field practicum observation. "N2, teacher is not happy right now, do you know why?" THEY KNEW. THEY FREAKING KNEW. I told one of the boy (let's call him boy A) to come out infront and I asked him, "you know why am i not happy?" "because i run." "yes, because you run and every one else followed.." and omg the most FURIOUS thing ever, the other boy was like "teacher, Boy A did not run first, I RUN FIRST" in my mind i was like OH GOD SERIOUSLY YOU STILL GOT THE BALLS TO SAY YOU RUN FIRST IMMA SLAP YOU RIGHT NOW. I was so furious because he wasn't even apologetic about what he have done. GOSH!!!!! then nevermind i let them to continue their colouring. ( i planned on DESIGN and DECORATING, so i was not doing according to the learning objective) and then they did their learning corner. The boys took their favourite lego toys, i twisted the rules to make it related to math and they didn't like the way of playing. The girls played with the play dough, they are perfectly fine. The boys as usual "I'm going to take 2 wheels and 4 covers.. and 3 long long" (that's the way they described their toys) then the twins snatched their toy and one of them cried, thank God i convinced him to play with the other toy. so left with 2 boys at the lego toys, then one of the boy wanted to go over to play dough too, so left with one boy there. my observation ended there. honestly i wasn't expecting her to say anything good cause as you can tell it was basically pretty much screwed up. I almost wanted to cry already can. then some more, my teacher being my teacher, she have to say ALL THE NEGATIVE POINTS and not even one good point. she talk and talk for like half an hour? then finally we are done. the moment she leave the other teachers all were like SO HOW SO HOW? i wanted to cry, even though she passed me. I felt like the most horrible person ever. My field supervisor told me that i have poor classroom management skills and the children didn't take me much as their teacher. they heard what i said but refused to listen to me.. she said that the children didn't respect me. I feel that this is quite similar to what i experience with other people also. I cannot draw the line between being a friend and being a leader. That's the one thing that made me feel so horrible. then today the chinese and also the english teacher both spoke up for me to the children... They are really nice.. I can't say more. I hope my FP4 will be better, my field supervisor also said that if this happens again during FP4, she will have to fail me. UGH. you little devils................... |