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Recently just helped my mummy to set up her blogshop. Not selling typical stuff though. http://mummysblogshop.blogspot.com I hope you guys will support. Need money. Talking about money, my mummy have been telling me to save up. Like a few bucks a day, i guess i can do it if i don't go for lunch and drink milo all day. Or just have a heavy breakfast, sounds cool. I'll just find somewhere to defrost or go to bugis for a walk. I longed for those days that I can be perfectly fine alone. Anyhow, today's lesson was boring. Well, kind of cool, but still boring. Phonetics and phonics. plus the fact i wasn't feeling well, i cannot focus :( having flu noww.. grrr. WHYY! and the classroom kinda smells like toilet. hahaha, like they use the same thing to clean the classroom! :x I don't like it when everything crashes at the same time, it's a big thing to handle. I only cry in front of those that I am close to, i always tell myself not to, but sometimes I just can't hold back anymore. So now I need to change, it's my side that's wrong. I don't know since when I became so negative. Trust me, I used to be the most positive person ever. Just that sometimes, some people's words shape another person. So now I don't speak unless I got something nice to say, that's safe enough. USE ENCOURAGING WORDS, I keep telling myself. But I can always easily encourage others, but not myself :( I wish i have that ability to boost my own self-esteem again. It's lost, somewhere. I wish everything is about exams now :( but no, i just realise the bad thing about being in tertiary education now.. Zzzz. Maybe it's true, you know, i realise once people start working, they change. Because I've never really worked before, that's why i'm like still at level 1, while others with work experience went on to level 2 already. I also realise that I'm a pretty competitive person, I love to compare myself to other people. I have so many flaw, I need to change. I HAVE TO CHANGE. or else I cannot survive in this world. Haters gotta hate, potatoes gotta potate. |