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3am I'm writing this blog post up at 3:04am. Thoughts are running through my head and I don't know why I am even this wide awake anyway. The TV is on, screening some old drama from the 80s which every Singaporean should know. But that doesn't matter. The following will be type just as the thoughts are flowing through my head, no filter. It might make sense, it might not. It's 30th of June, half of 2015 has officially gone in a flash. I would say this year is one that I really learn things, especially when it comes to being a teacher. I've been to places I never thought I'd step foot on and I've met people I never thought I would. There are things that happened that I wished it didn't, there are things that didn't happen which I wish it did. Whatever it is, it is already in the past. Looking back, it has been pretty exciting but not the most stretching year. Nevertheless, I'm thanking God for everything that has happened. I started out working as a teacher, not knowing anything or what to expect but I went with it anyway. Everyday is a YOLO journey, of trying and testing. There are times in this half of the year where I kept thinking if I am doing more harm to the class or am I actually doing something good, and if the class deserves a teacher like me. But every single time I see the children learn something new, I feel happy. Baby steps, I tell myself, baby steps. I've never collected forms before, and I never had to hold such a big responsibility over so many lives before, neither have I conducted a parent-teacher meeting before, but there's a first to everything right? With new workplace comes new colleague. As expected, I'm like the little girl in the whole school, but that doesn't mean that they look down on me. In fact, I feel that things are quite the opposite. And to a certain extent, it is kind of stressful. Currently, I'm in-charge of 2 classes, the 2 year old and the 4 year olds... I like the 4 year old more. Maybe it's me, but I feel because of the communication breakdown between me and the toddlers, I would often get very frustrated. Work aside, 2015 also brought in many people I never thought I would ever meet. Of course if you know me, you'll know who I'm talking about. Never in my life I thought that I would meet a singer and that person to call me a friend. Of course, I'm talking about Daphne Khoo. She's really an amazing person and the songs that she wrote were just amazing. Did I mentioned that she defeated cancer? I can't be more proud of her. She sings well, is able to songwrite, defeated cancer. She's such a strong women, I really look up to her. Daphne, if you're reading this, I love you and keep writing amazing songs! (And we'll catch up over truffle fries soon) She's such a friendly person and introduced me to Benjamin Kheng which opened me up to the local music scene. Right now, I'm listening to local singers and they are really amazing man. My interest in music and music production went up a notch after listening to them. I can't songwrite for good, but I can play the guitar and I guess that's not bad. That's all I feel like saying. It's almost half past 3 in the morning now. But I'm still not tired. I don't know what's wrong with me. But I guess I'll figure that out soon. Meanwhile, I'll try to do something productive maybe. I'm kind of regretting not going for a run earlier on, I usually run to make myself tired so that it is easier for me to fall asleep and I won't be flipping around the bed. I guess I really needed to run, but then again, I'm not feeling very well to begin with.. Down with flu and cough since last week. Here's to a better 2nd half of 2015. (And I know it will be good because I'll be watching Taylor Swift live again in November!) |