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I'm feeling weird
I don't know, I think I have come to a point of my life where I want to try everything new. I want to look for something that thrills and excites me. It's goes something like trying new kind of job. Going overseas. Doing things out of my comfort zone. YES, that's that I want. To actually leave my comfort zone. Don't get me wrong, not that I don't love what I am actually doing now, but I want to try new things. It's something that has been going on for almost one week now. I want to look for a job that is not related to early childhood. I want to travel on my own. I want to go out there and just make friends with total strangers. I don't know if anyone can relate to this. I find this very weird myself too. Somehow, I just find what I am doing now pretty mundane, there must be something more to life. I mean not just going school, going work, staying home, doing chores. NO. There's something more exciting that I'm missing. Some things exciting like learning something NEW, instrument or sports or something. Just something NEW is missing. I don't know why. It's like I want to do so many things and yet I am restricted. Well, generally you are pretty restricted if you don't have money and you live in Singapore. Which is... pretty sad. Basically I just want to get rid of (some) old things and replace them with new ones. Then again, being self-conscious, maybe I just like new stuff. Just like what my mom always say about me, that I 喜新厌旧. Which means I like the new things and I hate the old ones. This point about me is true, to a certain extent. I like some old stuff.. like my bolster... :P Anyhow, back to the main point. This lack of excitement in my life is currently killing me, really. It never had such in impact on me before, but now it hits me. Very hard. I don't think it is because of the free time I have (I was pretty busy the past week?) nor is it the thing that I can't go to camp. I just feel like I want to do so much more things, and not I want to own more things. I want to DO them. Something has to be done about it, this thing is affecting me. Maybe some kind soul can tell me what exactly is happening? You can comment here, or if you know me personally, text me! |